This may not be the exact case for all of us, but the basic idea is applicable for most. Expressing feelings in one language is simpler as compared to other, even when one has knowledge of both the languages. This has direct relations with the content we consume and the language of the content too.
Why it is difficult for most of us to express feelings in our mother tongue?
Have you ever thought about it?
What I mean is, why is saying “I Love You” simpler than saying “Mujhe tumse pyaar hai” for most of us?
Let us start with me, Marathi is my mother tongue, I am pretty good with English and have good enough proficiency in Hindi as well. Poetry writing is my hobby and content writing in all three is my profession. I teach Mass Communication to undergrads and grads. Every time I sit down to write some poetry, I am never able to gather words good enough to express my feelings in either Marathi or English. My poems are only good when I write in Hindi, not only with respect to the vocabulary used but also the feelings expressed. #This raised several questions in my head, questions that the Almighty internet failed to answer too.
I started reading about it, looking for answers and this is what sums it all up.
The content we consume, has a huge role to play in how we express our feelings. Someone who consumes a lot of sketch comedy on YouTube will have that sort of vocabulary and expressions. This inclusion is not a conscious effort of the individual, it happens on a subconscious level, also the inclusion levels vary too.
I have consumed a lot of content in English and Hindi, multiple reruns of Friends, Californication, House MD, Piku, Hum Paanch, Dil Chahta hai and several others. That subconsciously creeps in my thought process, my writing and even in the way I deliver lectures.
For example, all my articles on StackMantle that have personal context, have a distant style of getting to it, that I feel is the “House MD” effect. Here are some of them;
Another example is from my poetry, I have had no official coaching of poetry writing, I admire the work of Kumar Vishwas, and my poetry reflects the same! Have a look at this;
The point of this article is not talking about myself, consider this one as guidelines to check out what is influencing your mind, your expression of feeling and your whole personality at large.
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